Daddy rage engaged

Lack of sleep(two or three nights with much interrupted sleep,) new diet, and some crazy stuff with blog job one, a small bank loan that should have been a twenty minute deal that’s now on month two, and a toddler who hit the terrible twos, have lead me to realize today that I’ve reached a state of permanent pissed-offedness, which is not good for anyone involved.

I think realizing it at least I can do something about it, maybe go to bed when toddler does, drink something to calm me down (probably not booze, actually thinking tea might be good,) and perhaps playing like a maniac outside with Maggie for a few minutes to wear myself down a bit.

I had this at three months with Maggie, but I think I’m just older and weaker now and more prone to irritability. There’s also stereo crying now, so there’re more triggers than there were before. Eh… time to calm down.

Want to rage eat a pizza, but that’s not going to happen… le sigh… due to complete lack of energy am on a no-crash energy diet… well, that and attempting to get one number slight down on my cholesterol/triglyceride check.

It is odd when you find yourself thinking in a completely different way. Feeling like a robot again.

Arguments with two year olds every day, nobody wins, infant unable to tell me anything. blerg.

Will not… be… mad dad…